I just realized how mean I am.. I don’t do it on purpose, I just naturally act that way towards people because I don’t like getting close to people in general since they’ve treated me like garbage for the majority of my life. I’m going to try to be nicer though. I need to learn how to properly interact and socialize with people, especially my friends, and stop being so easily embarrassed, awkward and constantly say rude things I don’t mean.